A Book of Miracles by Dr. Bernie S. Siegel

Author:Dr. Bernie S. Siegel
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781577319696
Publisher: New World Library

Flash: Living with Miracles

BY KAY PFALTZ

On November 2, I took Flash, my thirteen-year-old miniature dachshund, to have back surgery. I rose before dawn, trying to cast away the odd sense of foreboding, and drove the two hours to the Veterinary Referral Center. Anyone who has given his or her heart to an animal will have experienced some of the worry and anxiety as well as the love and compassion that I was feeling as I stood in the treatment room with Flash and talked to the surgeon.

Six anxious hours passed before I again spoke with her and heard the words that would shake my life. Flash did not have invertebrate disk disease, but a tumor growing on his spine. But it was what the doctor said next that would shape my sorrow: neither radiation/chemotherapy nor surgery was an option for this kind of cancer, which involved the spinal cord. Palliative care was recommended, and humane euthanasia when the pain became too great and the swelling resistant to the prednisone. She gave Flash three weeks to live, one month at the very most.

Caught off guard, grief came upon me like a wave. There followed days of anguish and deep sorrow. Grief, now indistinguishable from fear, clung to us like a cloak. Until one night.

It was about a week after we’d returned from the vet. I sat up in bed surrounded by three dogs, and in that moment there was peace. Until that moment, my mind had been a whirl of sadness and the agony of indecision. Then gently, from nowhere, a peace befell me nudging out the draining stress, and I felt profound serenity in the moment.

A state of grace.

I laughed as if a joke had just floated by. Then silence again as the soft orange glow from the salt candle blanketed the room in tranquility and warmth.

Flash breathed deeply beside me. Chance was curled next to him, offering him her quiet strength. Sasha stretched her body around him as if protecting him from further harm. In my state of grace I slipped into a moment so beautiful I was scared to move lest it leave. I remained very still … and it persisted. And again silence, except the dogs’ light breathing, then… Sasha began to snore.

From that night on I decided this death sentence did not have to be our reality. I had tapped into the power of miracles; the ability to heal is within us all.

It happened slowly, but I began to change the way I understood reality: at any given moment, there was more than one outcome, and my heart was choosing the miracle. Because of a mere change in perception, my life began to transform in amazing ways.

I began to seek alternative means of healing. I sought a friend who used homeopathic, electrically charged essences, not unlike the Bach Flower Remedies. I changed Flash’s diet; I supplemented with herbs and vitamins. I played Bach’s Mass in B Minor and Robin Miller. But most of all I began to feel a subtle, yet powerful, “knowing.

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